Ruff days

On days like today all I feel like doing is sitting around crying my eyes out it's hard to wait around for a chance when you know it may not ever happen. I think about him all the time I can't sleep can't eat can't do anything because it all reminds me of him. Yes I know majority of everyone has a heart break but why did it have to happen to me at such a young age. Knowing that he is out there happier without me kills me if I could just have one chance to show him I could be his life. That would make me so much happier. I have so many emotions going through my head happyness sadness angerness those are just a few. And it's not like oh I'm happy today the mOods change constantly. But on days like today they just start out really ruff. Days like today I didn't want to by out of bed didn't want to eat all I did was let tear drop fall from my eyes and cover my pillow. Everynight I pray he will come home I pray he doesn't forget me I pray my pain will go away. But everyday I'm disappointed. I don't know of he's telling me the truth if he's actually going to come back. I just wish he would just tell me what he wants. I am so sick of being miserable I just want my baby back. Someday I hope you come home cause I can't take this pain it's killing me to go a day after day without you in my arms. You promised me forever so please come home baby I love you forever and always