today is my first day using blogspot i needed a way to exspress my feeling with out having facebook creepers laughing at me so i heard blogging helps alot of people so here goes.
i was in a relationship with this guy we didnt treat eachother the way we deserved i broke it off 3 days before our one year anniversary. after we first broke up i had a feeling that made me happy i was satified knowing we needed a break i didnt specify how much i still cared and that i didnt want to move on we just needed time apart. when i was ready to get back with this guy he told me that he was talking to another girl i was hurt and fought for him we seen each other in the meen time. but come to find out he was already dating this girl. i have never felt so much pain in my life all i feel like doing is over dosing or wanting to jump of a bridge anything to keep this pain away from me. but yet he is still around its like he doesnt want me but doesnt want me gone. i want him more then anything in this world. he just hasnt seen me enough to believe me that im 100% in love with him. i miss him more then ive ever missed anyone. he means the world to me he just doesnt realize that im falling more in love with him and im not meaning to. during the day everythings okay most of the time, but once night hits all i see is him and her im not even in the picture. theres alot of things going through my head and i dont know how to react or how to get past this heart break but writing and talking about it helps.
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