Wow I can't believe I let myself fall for you again you say you care you say you still have feeling well if ou did you wouldn't be such an ass to me in the first place. I am a girl and a special one at that any guy would be lucky to have. I actually loved you from the bottom of my heart I thought we were ment to be. Well I guess there's a difference between thought and is right? One day when you are all alone and heartbroken I'll be there for you because that's just the person I am but you and me we won't be together again unless we sit down and talk. There's things that will need to change like we need to talk bout are problems instead of bit each others head off... Another thing no cheating behind my back like you did hers! No lieng to my face and last but not least I won't whole heart and 100% trust. Give that and baby we would be the best thing in the world... But your gone so it doesn't matter right now. It's pretty bad that I talk to your family more then you! But you made your choice you said your happier without me so it's okay I'm strong enough now to let you go one because I know you will always think of me an two you said his wasn't the end of us so holding you to that as well as the week before school that's probable one of your lies but I'm going to think it's true until it becomes a lie. You know I'm always gunna have feeling for you but as of now I'm pushing you out one to save my life and two to heal the open wounds that I have. When you said a break I took it as you are coming back you just needed a summer fling to get back on your feet well I don care if you want me back or if you don't all I know is if you doncome back I want you to come back and stay back if you never going to come back tell me because inneed to get completely over you.. I thought you were something special something no one else was but when your with her you are rude and mean but when you are by itself your the Christopher I fell in love with. Well no need to worry about me you wanna know why cause I'm getting stronger daily and yesterday at the fair it didn't bother me one bit . I flirted for the first time since u and her started goon out it was weird but it kept you off my mind and now I'm going on vacation for to weeks with my best friend it's going to keep me from thinking bout you and keep me from wanting to talk to you! All I have left to tell you is my tears are no longer going to be over you and my life is getting better you were right you weren't my life but u were alot of it thanks for being my first love it was amazing I will never forget you so now all that's left of you are my memories cause u made it clear your gone well chris honey when school starts and you see this beautiful girl walking by you can look and think damn I left an look what I'm missing out on cause honey your getting pushed out daily I will always love you but I don't deserve to cry for you to come back daily cause it's killing me so my smile is on my body is back and you are not around to see it sucks to be you.....
P.S I LOVE YOU MORE NOW THEN EVER!!! Keep your promises show your a man and not a fake like you say every guy is come home babe I love ya
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