i did it its finally gone:)

its's been a really good past couple days. even though the worst that could happen  happend he said he wants me to loose his number because im causing him to much drama with his girl friend. well i talked to him for a couple hours then i let him go. i know if he truly cared and he loved me like he said he does then he will come back. he will never know the feelings i have because he hasnt given me that chance to prove to him that ill not be a waste of his time. i have this feeling that is telling me you and him will be amazing if you give it one more shot i know how to fix things and i know how to solve things im getting better and better every single day. like last night i was so proud of my self one you werent on my mind to text its been two days yay:) then the past couple months i have been having dreams that your back and your really not which makes waking up really hard and making the day start off really bad. well last night i didnt you were not in my dream last night i didnt have one dream with you in it:) and when i woke up i didnt have that urge to talk to you and i woke up alot happier without you being the first thing i thought of. im getting so much better at letting you go because thats what you want. im still in love with you i still care so much about you but im gettting to the point were im telling myself that if you wanted me you would be back. and i keep in my head the promises you made me remember the im the only girl you will ever sleep with? remember the im going to come back the week before school to give you one more chance because im not over you yet?remember those well im still holding on to that. and do you remember everything we ever shared well this next time itll be 10x better because as of now my heart still belongs to you yes im picking up broken pieces and putting them back together but my heart still cant get your name off of it. you still mean so much to me and i still will take you back in a heart beat. family and friends are trying to hook me up with other guys but i keep turning them down because my heart says show you im faithful to my heart and you will see how much you mean to me well im getting better and if you still get on here and read please note that i miss you like crazy and i love you till i close my eyes forever thanks for being my first love

P.S I LOVE YOU LIKE CRAZY TILL THERE IS NO MORE US love ya