Have you ever loved someone so much that you think you can't live without them? Well that's what happend to me I loved you Christopher far beyond the amount a normal person should love someone I would drop everything for you! I'd do anything for you! And that's why I let you camp at my house you didn't tell me your girlfriend was going to be at my house! I have never exsperiance so much pain in my life my heart felt like it's was shot numerous times while being ripped apart slowly. My lungs stopped filling with oxygen my throat felt like I just swallowed a huge cotton ball. My fingers were trembling like an elderly! My feet felt like jello while stuck in the same place! I have never in my life been so heartbroken. As you pulled away my mind was in shock I was stund that this just happend. I took a knee by the tree grabbin the bark for security. As I stood up everything darkend the light fading the sound fading my world fading. As I wake up in my mothers arms tears fall one two three falling faster and faster. And the pains are all back I clinch my fist anger takes over squeezing my fist so tightly they turned white I ran down the stairs with my anger trembling picking up! As I reached my bed I grabbed the animal from which I so cherished a couple days ago! I ripped the bear in to pieces with my bear hands! I look at you picture I get a sickening feeling. As I cope with the realization that I just destroyed a stuffed animal and realizing my hand hurts ! I have found out that I punched the wall fingers swelling mind going blank. With the love I thought you once consumed I can see that has faded. Any guy who knew a girl was truly in love with him he would not bring a girl to her home! I will never forget this pain it's perminatly stuck on my heart and me knowing the guy who I loved did it to me. As I remember you I no longer remember the happy you the one I fell in love with, but the you that cut the last string holding my heart from plummeting to the bottom of no return. My heart was healing rebinding but it quickly fell shaddering into tiny granes of sand impossible to pick up the prices and re start again. I'm at the lowest I can be and all because you couldn't see the truth in front of your eyes. So long, time to return to the dark sad tearful mornings and nights as days go by one after another. It's over it's all over I'm emotionless powerless I'm nothing! but a faint memory and old photograph and old ex lover. and you will never be the same to me. theres only one thing that will prove your self and you should know this. promises i dont know should be kept or not. but im not the only one you have to say sorry to my mom sister and step dad they held me in there arms as the tears fell all night and they could feel the pain that came from it. my life will NEVER be the same. sorry i didnt realize that was your plan in the first place. this is me signing out and returning to the horrible day and days to come!
P.S NEVER WILL I LET A GUY LOVE ME IT'S TO PAIN FULL
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